It’ll pass

I’ve finally stopped following her on all the social online shit. After realizing that she blocked me on Facebook and unfollowed on twitter/tumblr. Idk for how long but she stopped and I started to think why the hell am I still reading her posts and shit? When It’s clear that she’s really tryina erase me from her life. Idk why i thought she would still read my stuff anyways. Cuz every time I read her stuff I automatically try to see if it was a reference to me. And thought it be the same for her. I guess i hoped my posts would give a hint that I still thought about her and she would see that. Jus recently I saw some posts sayin she hanging out with her other ex again…and honestly I was trippin. It bothered me that I was feelin this way. I was feelin lonely and jealous. And i was goin crazy at the fact that I couldn’t stop thinkin bout her, especially after seeing that. I needed to stop. I had to remember that I broke up with her for a reason and I was not about to allow myself to go back cuz of loneliness. It would hurt both of us more If I tried. I was stupid to think we could still be friends right after I broke her heart. But she seemed so convinced that we would still talk and keep in touch, maybe even be best friends. She even had me convinced of it. But now she totally cut me off and I guess it finally has sunk in to me that me&her are over…

Even after venting all of this. There’s still a glimmer of hope in me that we could be friends..one day.

Hmm it took about 3 weeks but I think this phase of hella obsessing over her is finally done. Best janelle called me out on alot of this shit with wise words “even tho she told you that, girls don’t know what they want”. And like my bestay Kim said, “it’ll pass” and she was most def right. Jus had to dedicate the title to that lol. Time to get back to doin me! Lehhgo!!